To baby or not to baby

Recent figures in El pais {one of Spain leading news papers} show that only 36 per cent of woman over 30 years was unmarried 10 years ago in Spain compared to 61 per cent of unmarried woman over 30 years in 2005.

A significant number of Spanish women are earning more money than ever before, buying houses and nice cars and do not have to depend on the institution of marriage to provide these material goods. Like British women they are becoming torn between settling down and pursuing their careers.

I’m not sure which category I fall into- maybe a little of all of them but I’m certainly not one of these women who celebrates my freedom and the fact that I’m holding a caipirinha cocktail in my hands and not a baby Neither do L tire to hear about my nephews and friends babies; their first steps, or teething problems. But l enjoy my life without children, uninterrupted quality time spontaneity and  financial freedom l’m not yearning to be woken up in the middle of the night by a toddler bouncing on my bed; bypass the crèche at my gym without pining for kids l’m happy enough to jump on the cross trainer and plug in my pod.

I thought the day would arrive when l felt a void and needed a child to complete me but this day feels like a long way away. I’m still on a quest to make sense of myself in this life and l don’t expect a child to do that for me.